Monday, December 14, 2009

Hunt

A lot has happened as her try to get ready for hunt. Aurora getting stronger, and Caliban burn down from Alliance. Miss Charly and Mister Faulkin runned off at the same time. Some new mans came, one is nice and gived candy AND pets. One just gived candy.

Miss x0x0 gived away half the land her had purchased, and all them replicants and their friends living there, including Miya and Thoth. Thoth still not like mutants, him thinks Lily don't know but her do know. And Miya...not sure what to think. Her nice, but...something not right sometimes. Like, her like Lily but not like its "kind", if that make any sense.

Lot of people trying to find where somebody her won't name gots a special safe place, name of Sanctuary, and some did find it, but well it move. So them not really know much about it. Miss Mikie was hiding up there, and her was quite sick. Look like Miss x0x0 putted her there to be safe, not sure how that happen - just, it went to Londininiumium and next thing, Miss Mikie up there in the safety place. Then lot of people all buzzing around try to find her and some old guy was there, him was asleep the whole time. Not sure where it went, too - they putted him in the church, but when this one go back to look, nuffing there.

BlueSun call me in for working on train system again. Thought them was going to wait but no, they gots some factory going in and said them need 'stuff' transported. So, at least got some work to make coin before the Hunt.

Not that coin do any good on the hunt. Nuffing you can buy wif money there. Only with running fast, and hiding good. There three parts to the hunt. First is the fight to get in. It not so bad, everyone gots to fight, and the one that win gets in. It is chosen, like, the old ones pick the one they want to fight and us just do our best. Some says they lets all in, the fight just to 'test' us. Lily not had to do the fight last year. Hope them let her do it this year. Last year just got to watch and then hunt meat, but not really go on the big hunt.

After the fight to see if you get in, then is the running. Them runs a long way and bad things along the way, but if you makes it to camp then you get to start next part.

That the part where everyone get partnered off with potential mate, and it like a 'team' and them go hunt for meat, weak prey, things the tribe need. The tribe need things like water, rope, meat, any kind of maps, and especially weak ones that got potential to serve. We not to kill anything unless is fightworthy and we kills it in battle after it attacks us, or unless it too weak to fight. Means, we just defends ourselves, not attack. Just get things and make a mark where we was. That mean we gots to pee on trees and sand and things.

When we bring in what we finded, whoever left alive make the circle and puts them things in it, and then the old ones takes what them want, and then we get what left and fight to keep it. Sometimes they take one of the new for the tribe and them stay, like, be mate wif old one. The partner Lily gots last year got keeped by the old ones. Him was nice, and not want to stay, but not gots a choice once you start the hunt. You finish one way or another.

If luck wif me, and Duncan say 'stay lucky' so her know her gots luck, her will return home wif lot of meat, and new things and most of all knowledge her could run wif what is something like some part of her. Too bad Mindo not along the way. Could bring him to the circle. No one want him for sure, so then him come back wif me, and I give him back to him sister. She write about him in a notebook every day, make a little mark. Not sure why.

Cody say the cub really pester him for something. And, him used a really big word. Not sure what it meant but not want to ask. Him look older than when her meeted him first. Also, Sentry look older - everybody look what them call 'older'. Lily growed up too. Look older than in her photos. But still not growed up. Her remember Mindo tell her that her not gets to grow up, and that it all x0x0 fault. x0x0 looking nicer, softer, and spend a lot of time wif robots. Guess next to robots, her look more 'nice' or sweeter but...truf is, her could make them robots parts fall flyin in the air. Lily seen her do it to one boy. Just say something that make no sense and next thing you know, boy is laying on the floor holding him side. Not even see her move.

Miss Imrhien still out in the black. Td and Miss Opine too. Sabrina around but pre-occuplied and Miss Seana really think more about what best for the cub. Not listen to me. Best for the cub is for cub to end. When finish with Mister Wind, cub next in line. Krenshar probably be really mad but something inside making her to 'fix' it, and only fix is to end it. No one listen.

Oh, and Miss x0x0 gots Blue locked up! It a secret, but Lily seen him all not able to move. Only, think he probably could if him wanted to. There a sign that say 'compliments of Aurora' around him neck. Not sure what that mean. But him in there in her lab, in some kind of 'mush' and gots a sign. Him not talk to me when I go. Look almost like him freezed.

And finally, I, Lily Snoodle, hissed at Gallagher. Not like him. Ignore me, always busy, doing secret things wif him friends in the Dharma. Him...doing more and more, and more and more not really gots time for this one cause it not real. It like that book about the bunny. Lily more like Velveteen Rabbit than cat. Not a cat for sure. And everyone know at the end, the rabbit not gots its boy any more. Damn books. Maybe them should be burned up like other fings that gets on fire.

So, before hunt start, her going to playground of Hale Moon and swing and slide and run and flip, and then skate on the ice. Swim and sit in the bit square and sit in the bubbles. You just push a button and it make bubbles. It really fun. Then say goodbye to Vincent. Then go. Not many days left. Hope someone around to play wif. Well, not cub, but anyone else. Maybe her take Sam and the baby. Them not play though. Just wiggle.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Cody

Cody is a boy.

I writed in you about him earlier, about the ring and how her melted coin to make it, and how him made one for her, and ask Seana about if he could see me in a steady state.

Him gots what you might call rather accident prone nature. Him accidentally walk into fists, bullets, knifes, and trouble. Always rushing in to try to help someone in trouble too. And usually end up getting hurt.

Well this time him gotted hurt - you know, when her gotted him from the bad mans ship. We was in the salt water where we ditch..well, where her ditch...and him swim to shore, leaving trail of red in the water. Know him safe with Cap'n Duncan, so her salvage what her can out of ship and make it to them. We fly back.

But, him gotted hurt and had not telled, and so when we was back, it gotted clear that a surgical procedure to take out some bullet or something..maybe bone...was needed. Lily finded him, with Miss Emberzzz and Cursa, in the church where her lefted him.

Well it was a big shock to say the least to see Miss Emberzzz holding onto him hand, and putting her hand on him chest. Then bending over him looking in him eyes. And then her thank *me* for helping him. Told her not have to thank, it my job. Not sure why her would thank me anyway, it just feeled funny. I like Miss Emberzzz, but not how her was holding on Cody hand. Mostly, not like how her not move herself out the way so Lily can hold. That my job. Touch.

Anyway she goed away, and then I help Cursa do operation. His hands move SO fast. Did i write this before? Never see nothing like it. Just close eyes and...like, hands do it on them own. Cody gots my blood now, too. Had to. We runned out. Hope the nanites not hurt him. Pretty much them inactive, but worst case them just suck up the metal. Maybe that a good thing ultimately.

So, after surgery Lily carry him back to tower, and him sleeped. Next day, him well enough to go for walk. Well, her maked him. And that night him sleeped in boarding house. Easier than carry up the stairs to tower for sure. It was cold in there. Lily maked a fire in her fire pot and moved some towels and water for him, but by the time that was all done, him still look cold so her just stay there. Make sure blanket all around him real good, too, snuggie, and gived him her first and best cuddle doll, and him helded onto it. Lily make a nest on top of blanket, for warmth of that boy, and sleep. Waked up early, him sleeping ok, so went out to do her things.

Finally him waked up. Said he sleeped hard. Lily think sleep very soft. But him say it hard, and gets bad dreams. Him had one of them in tower, actually. Ghosts. That what he said. Ghosts. So, it late but we decide to MacLaren and see what going on.

Well, right away, he hears Brooke somewhere wif her husband, named Tee, and cause Tee not everyone friend now, Cody all ready to go rescue. Then a rich old man came to hire security. Lily ask about it but them ignore her. Then Dex scritch her ears and also WillieB camed. By this time Cody all mad and out flying around, which is not good cause him on them pains drug, but hey, Lily not his nuffin. Him not listen.

WillieB Listen. Say him like my tail. That remind me, got to find what Miss Opine maked for me. Gotted a space for tail. It almost time to go for the hunt. This her second year. I wonder how many of us there will be.

But about Cody. He is very nice and dress clean. Got good grooming. Just wish him was not so stubborn. And now him say him gots to go Blackburne for what his Daddy leaved from before the Reavers came. Blackburne. What him not know is sometimes her go there and just sit in the quiet. It not a place he really should go. Not at all.

Oh, them Reavers gone. But what they left is worse. Maybe I gots to wif him to keep him safe. Or else get him not go. Or at least not take the Firefly. It remind them whats left of Mister Nack, and that...sure to set them off.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

This is how it goes...a retrospective

You can't take the sky from me....

If you listening that is what the man says. Burn the land and boil the sea, you can't take the sky from me...and that how it is. There no other place her can be except wif Browncoats. This family.

Upside Down

And it make her happy. When her finded Mister Nack and Miss Laur and Miss Lorie and even Miss x0x0 in the Waste and live in shelter when no one there. Meeted so many people. Her can feel a change in everything, and as the surface break,reflections fade but in some ways remain the same. Her come alive. Start awaking. Curious.

I wanna turn the whole thing upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found...

That how it was for months and months and months. Learning. Learn from everyone. Words, how them connect, what them make people do. Her learn things not always just as they seem.

I wanna turn the whole world upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found....

Then one day try to visit some place and them not let her in. Not strictly "human".
Well, was good enough for Miss Anna Niska to want for special companion, even if Mister say "NO." But them say 'not welcome here'...and then her understand. Lily not real.

Better as a Memory

Cry a lot. Tired of being. Then meet Mister Glaze. Treat her like her, well, Real. Run, jump, hunt, fight Alliance, and Reavers. OK, so him not run as fast, or jump as high, or hunt as good...and maye not so good at fighting for human, him pretty good. And him not care that her raised by Catscratch.

What happen, Lily learn the sound of him voice. And become real.

Friend.

But time came him to go.

Her try to tell herself that him gone, but though him still wif her, her still alone all along. Maybe never was Real.

Who can say.

Now, gots some memories, books, letters, papers, photos, and a gold ring. Still not dream. Still keep light in window, no matter where her move. One day, her gonna blow that damn candle out for sure.

Still..him say it well. Him better as a memory. Like Miss Seana say, him a man and Lily not growed up. Maybe look sometimes, 'specially when dressed up good but..truf is, when him was here, her still not even yet know what is make them organics pair off. Better to hunt alone, faster and safer.

"I see you leaning...You bound to fall...I don't want to be that mistake...
I'm just a dreamer...nothing more...you should know it before it gets too late.
Cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel
You never know where they're gonna land
First your spinnin then you're sittin still..

One day you gonna find someone, right away you know its true
That all of your seekins done, just a part of the passing thru
Right at that moment, you understand, I was better as a memory than as your man".

Then her met Ben.

Breakin the law. & Criminal
Finded him lost and wandering in Blackburne. Not sure how it happen, but we had lot of fun, and him like excitement and fly fast.

So, we fly fast.
We ran and robbed and rided and had fun. Him taked me to be bounty hunter wif him. Seana not like that very much.

But looking back, think it was probably good tiing. Lily bored and settin fires when her meeted Ben BigBoots. Breaking windows in town, running wild at night killing mice or anyfing really. We rob some stores, fly lot of places.

Then him met a Bounty Hunter who was grown up.

Feel as though nobody care if her live or die so her may as well put some action in her life....Frantic frantic..so much for the golden future...Aylen, Awenasa. Oh yes, him take her to find Blue and all that. An that good. And, girl him meeted that was grown up, her very nice too. But one her came to work for us, things changed.

Lily got video feed of them. Dancing.

Breaking the Law. Breaking the Law.

But it ok. Cause him had got her to the Blue.

Blue
Blue....the one for who her soul longs, if only her had one. Soul that is. Only real people got souls. Lily organically seeded but not sure if that means her got soul somewhere or if it only go to the cub...

Blue.

Now her everywhere again. Still gots not all the dreams.

Every body say hell the hippest way to go, her not really think so, but will take a look around it for...Blue......her love you....here is a shell for you..inside you'll hear a sigh...a foggy lullabye....there is your song...from me.....

In my daughters eyes

She was sent to rescue me. Not just me. Everybody. Well, maybe not everybody.
Took three days to get her. Three days and four words.

Metamorphasis Five

But things not go as them supposed to. Things happen.

These things do happen.

Broken Vow

Krenshar. Him leaved. We was the best friends. Could have made him stay. But him say him got to fix things. Now, nobody really listen or hear.

Tell me the words I never said.
Show me the tears you never shed.

I let you go, I let you fly, Why do I keep on asking why...

I let you go, I let you fly, now that I know, I'm asking why
I let you go, now that I've found a way to keep somehow....

More than a broken vow.


That ok. Him gots a happy on him new moon. Take good care of Aurora. Lily busy making a nest. We can still be friends. Just cause someone go away don't mean them not your friend, not if you really friends. Him like her just like her is. That mean not gots to be growed up, or fancy, or even make meatsticks. After all, him not need food either. Now her not sad any more that him go. Actually it give her time to think about past days..

And it always been here. Her just not see it. It so clear.

Inaudible Melodies

Thinking. Thinking. Thinking.

Maybe this is how its 'sposed to be...

Like a film. Maybe it's up with the stars. Maybe it's under the sea.
Maybe its not very far. Maybe this is how its 'sposed to be.
Maybe this is how its 'sposed to be.

Maybe its trapped in a jar. Something we've already seen.
Maybe its no where at all. Maybe this is how its 'sposed to be.
Maybe this is how its 'sposed to be.

Lookin forwards, we rewind
Looking back is a trap sometime
Being here is so easy to do.

If you want to, if you want to, if you want to, if you want to, if you want to


Be

Why didn't her see it before?

Better Together

Gallagher

Dreaming


Lot of things has happened.

Cody got shotted by a man. The man's friend is really nice to Lily. Her so confused. Him just nice. Not betray. Not shoot. Lily so confused.

Cursa operated on Cody and Lily help.

Cursa gots good hands. And hims mind is very, very clean. If Lily ever get sick and not self-repair, for sure what Cursa be her doctor.

Cody sleeping now in her tower.


Thinking a lot about dreams. Cody waked up in the night and said him had bad dreams. Lily gots lots of dreams - Mister Cobb, Mister Glaze, Mister Xzander, Cap'n Aeon, Miss Imrhien, Miss Mikie, Ben. ....wonder why Ben not a Mister. Hmm. Actually Genra not a Mister. and Gallagher not a Mister. And Cody.

Only some dreams her not gots. Gallagher's, Cody's, Mister Sentry, Mister Pod, Mister Nack. It just feel wrong to take them, even though it her job. Just can't. No, just won't.

'specially Mister Pod.

and 'specially Mister Krenshar. well, him not gots any, like me. But there 117 to get, and her gots 100, and some of them is starting to glow nice and move.

oh, and her stole Mister Winds fuel cell to trade. Not break in him ship. Not break NO lock or open no doors. No breaking and entering. Climb thru space at top of door. Got pictures to prove. Not take him dreams though. Not time yet.

Mister Cobb always lingering around in her mind. Guess maybe him the first organic man ever say would miss her if him lost her. Not that him had her. Meaning, her not 'haveable' except Miss Seana gots her cause adoption and all.

And of course Gallagher. Gallagher funny. Silly.

So today her made recordings in an order, of what life has been like since her came first to Blackburne, then move Hales. You can listen. Her tell you about them in the order them come.

Oh, and Miss Ardra? Lily still gots her. Not sure who out there pretending be her, but for sure, her in my head. Want to let her go into some new place so her can run and jump. But....gots to be the right one. And so far, only option been Miss Jai and well, her just so .....already know too much. Not need to know things 'faster' .